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Wings was released on October (day), 2020 on Rose Brown's YouTube channel.
Wings contains 14 original tracks that were all written, performed, recorded, produced, and released by Rose Brown. 1. wings 2. magpie 3. smoke 4. burn together 5. believe 6. i'm sorry 7. shoe 8. halloween 9. okay 10. puppet games 11. bubbles 12. rescue 13. brave 14. art |
ABOUT THE NAME
i actually named this album around the time i released my last album, Unfiltered, in October of 2019. at the time, it felt like the perfect title. even though i didn't have all of the songs written, i just had a feeling about it.
then, earlier in 2020, i started questioning my decision. i felt like it was ambitious for me to create an album around the idea of 'wings' when i'm the type of person who will always be too terrified to even try to fly. who am i to talk about growing wings and using them? i was convinced that i should change the name, even though i'd already committed to it.
but, then i talked to my best friend, Taylor. and he made me realize that maybe my fears make me a good person to talk about my fears of flying. wings could be a journey of me going into my cocoon and coming out with my new wings, timid, but learning that it's okay to use them.
i especially loved this idea when i remembered i had taken a picture of a butterfly with a missing wing two years prior*. i felt like this was exactly the imagery i wanted for this project. here is this beautiful, bold, vibrant butterfly, missing one of its wings. even though this creature is flawed, it is still beautiful because it is still a butterfly -- and i wanted to remind people that, just because we may have some rough edges or things we think are "missing", we're still beautiful just the way we are because we are still us. our flaws do not define us.
*disclaimer: i did not harm the butterfly in the picture. it was outside of my house one day and i think my mom was the first person to see it, but i was the one to pick it up and carry it around for most of the afternoon. it was amazing.
then, earlier in 2020, i started questioning my decision. i felt like it was ambitious for me to create an album around the idea of 'wings' when i'm the type of person who will always be too terrified to even try to fly. who am i to talk about growing wings and using them? i was convinced that i should change the name, even though i'd already committed to it.
but, then i talked to my best friend, Taylor. and he made me realize that maybe my fears make me a good person to talk about my fears of flying. wings could be a journey of me going into my cocoon and coming out with my new wings, timid, but learning that it's okay to use them.
i especially loved this idea when i remembered i had taken a picture of a butterfly with a missing wing two years prior*. i felt like this was exactly the imagery i wanted for this project. here is this beautiful, bold, vibrant butterfly, missing one of its wings. even though this creature is flawed, it is still beautiful because it is still a butterfly -- and i wanted to remind people that, just because we may have some rough edges or things we think are "missing", we're still beautiful just the way we are because we are still us. our flaws do not define us.
*disclaimer: i did not harm the butterfly in the picture. it was outside of my house one day and i think my mom was the first person to see it, but i was the one to pick it up and carry it around for most of the afternoon. it was amazing.
The Story Behind...
track 1 - wings
I promise, the butterfly in the track art is not the same as the butterfly in the main album "cover" art. The pictures were taken on different days, different butterflies. I would never harm another creature (except for ones that would cause harm to me like certain spiders and scorpions).
this was one of the last songs i wrote for the album, surprisingly. in the process of writing and recording the other tracks, i realized how much i was holding on to certain situations that no longer served me. this song is about one of those situations.
wings is kind of an open letter to one of my ex bosses.
not long after i left that job, i was watching a Tony Robbins program with my mom. two years later, there's one piece of advice he gave that still resonates in my mind. while i don't remember it perfectly, it goes something like this: you can't credit someone for ruining your life without also crediting and thanking them for improving your life.
I realized I had spent so much time being angry and holding onto something that actually improved my life. I was released from a place that was no longer meant for me. I was given a new lease on life, given the opportunity to chase my dreams, instead of moping around a salon where I was miserable. Despite how things happened, they happened for a reason. And, truthfully, I wouldn't be where I am today if it wasn't for her releasing me the only way she knew how.
this was one of the last songs i wrote for the album, surprisingly. in the process of writing and recording the other tracks, i realized how much i was holding on to certain situations that no longer served me. this song is about one of those situations.
wings is kind of an open letter to one of my ex bosses.
not long after i left that job, i was watching a Tony Robbins program with my mom. two years later, there's one piece of advice he gave that still resonates in my mind. while i don't remember it perfectly, it goes something like this: you can't credit someone for ruining your life without also crediting and thanking them for improving your life.
I realized I had spent so much time being angry and holding onto something that actually improved my life. I was released from a place that was no longer meant for me. I was given a new lease on life, given the opportunity to chase my dreams, instead of moping around a salon where I was miserable. Despite how things happened, they happened for a reason. And, truthfully, I wouldn't be where I am today if it wasn't for her releasing me the only way she knew how.
track 2 - magpie
Magpie is one of my personal favorites. While it could maybe sound like a "diss" track to the newest guy to catch my eye, it's actually more of me being self aware of my tendencies.
When I was in school, I would had a new crush almost every week, it seemed. My aunt and mom started joking around with each other about how this new boy was just my new "flavor of the month", knowing that I would be swooning after a different one, soon.
Now, in my 20s, I don't really have "flavors of the month" like I used to. Instead, my wandering eye usually picks one person to focus on for a little while. Then, after I've written a few songs and several letters I'd never have the courage to send, I eventually get over it.
Magpie was inspired by my eye getting caught by a guy that's come to a couple of my gigs. In fact, the last time I saw him, I made a note in my phone to write a song about him. Well, here it is.
Basically, I am calling myself a magpie (the birds that are attracted to and collect shiny things). I explore the idea of this "crush" and realize, while he is probably a really nice guy, I don't know him. In the grand scheme, I'm probably more attracted to the idea of him than I am to the actual person. I like the idea of getting to know someone new, hearing their stories, and admiring their shine... But I also love the idea that he doesn't know me, either.
And instead of overthinking the entire situation in my head like I usually would, I realize I shouldn't fixate on him and I just need to let it go, even if my curiosities are never explored, sometimes it's okay to never know.
When I was in school, I would had a new crush almost every week, it seemed. My aunt and mom started joking around with each other about how this new boy was just my new "flavor of the month", knowing that I would be swooning after a different one, soon.
Now, in my 20s, I don't really have "flavors of the month" like I used to. Instead, my wandering eye usually picks one person to focus on for a little while. Then, after I've written a few songs and several letters I'd never have the courage to send, I eventually get over it.
Magpie was inspired by my eye getting caught by a guy that's come to a couple of my gigs. In fact, the last time I saw him, I made a note in my phone to write a song about him. Well, here it is.
Basically, I am calling myself a magpie (the birds that are attracted to and collect shiny things). I explore the idea of this "crush" and realize, while he is probably a really nice guy, I don't know him. In the grand scheme, I'm probably more attracted to the idea of him than I am to the actual person. I like the idea of getting to know someone new, hearing their stories, and admiring their shine... But I also love the idea that he doesn't know me, either.
And instead of overthinking the entire situation in my head like I usually would, I realize I shouldn't fixate on him and I just need to let it go, even if my curiosities are never explored, sometimes it's okay to never know.
track 3 - smoke
** Removed from Streaming**
This song is a follow up to a track on Unfiltered called "Other Side".
Other Side is the story of how I recognized that people don't have to stay in your life if they don't want to... and that I didn't have to wait for them to eventually return. Especially if they decided to burn bridge, themselves.
Smoke is about that person eventually coming back, just as you are turning to walk away. You see their silhouette in the distance and stop to watch as they approach you. Then, once you see them more clearly, you realize they weren't the person you thought they were in the past.
Whether you were blinded by love or hope, it doesn't matter anymore. Finally, the true colors of that person are visible and there's no denying it, anymore. You can't keep making excuses for someone that could walk away so easily.
Sometimes burning bridges isn't the worst thing... sometimes it gives you a clearer perspective of the person and the reality in which you live.
Other Side is the story of how I recognized that people don't have to stay in your life if they don't want to... and that I didn't have to wait for them to eventually return. Especially if they decided to burn bridge, themselves.
Smoke is about that person eventually coming back, just as you are turning to walk away. You see their silhouette in the distance and stop to watch as they approach you. Then, once you see them more clearly, you realize they weren't the person you thought they were in the past.
Whether you were blinded by love or hope, it doesn't matter anymore. Finally, the true colors of that person are visible and there's no denying it, anymore. You can't keep making excuses for someone that could walk away so easily.
Sometimes burning bridges isn't the worst thing... sometimes it gives you a clearer perspective of the person and the reality in which you live.
track 4 - burn together
early in 2020, i was having a conversation with one of my friends. before i realized it, i was going on and on about this crush i have. when we were done talking for the night, i couldn't help but think about how silly i felt for talking about my crush the way i did. then, i started to wonder: does my crush talk to her friends about me the way I talk to my friends about her?
Burn Together is a little song I wrote, hoping that I wasn't alone in these feelings.
track 5 - believe
** Removed from Streaming**
Imagine: you're still at the bridge that was previously burned to the ground, when you look up and see that person in the distance, and they happen to be walking in your direction. Even though you've seen their true colors, instead of running away like most people do, you choose to give them one more chance.
After letting them back in, you keep hitting these "road blocks" and obstacles. And they keep making you wonder what you should believe:
A. They've changed in the time we've been a part. People can change for the better. And despite how toxic they were in the past, it seems like they're genuinely trying. Maybe this one chance will be worth it? Maybe I just overreacted in the past?
B. The battle scars you have are reminders of all the cat fights you'd get into because you kept trying to have "pissing matches" to see who could get the final word in. Sure, in the very beginning you got along, but things started spiraling after a while. You can't ignore the past, it's there for a reason.
I will give you a little insight to that: even if you want to see the best in people, the past is there for a reason. No, you aren't meant to live in it forever. However, it is there for you to reference and use as caution as you move forward. Sometimes, though, if you keep finding yourself in the past... mayyyyyybe there's a reason....
After letting them back in, you keep hitting these "road blocks" and obstacles. And they keep making you wonder what you should believe:
A. They've changed in the time we've been a part. People can change for the better. And despite how toxic they were in the past, it seems like they're genuinely trying. Maybe this one chance will be worth it? Maybe I just overreacted in the past?
B. The battle scars you have are reminders of all the cat fights you'd get into because you kept trying to have "pissing matches" to see who could get the final word in. Sure, in the very beginning you got along, but things started spiraling after a while. You can't ignore the past, it's there for a reason.
I will give you a little insight to that: even if you want to see the best in people, the past is there for a reason. No, you aren't meant to live in it forever. However, it is there for you to reference and use as caution as you move forward. Sometimes, though, if you keep finding yourself in the past... mayyyyyybe there's a reason....
track 6 - i'm sorry
Hello, my name is Rose, and I can be overly apologetic.
Seriously, though, I'm Sorry is about me wishing I could take back some of the things I've said and done to a person I care deeply about. Even though I try to not have any regrets and recognize that sometimes things just have to happen, there are moments I am not proud of and wish I could take back.
Unfortunately, you can't take away the pain you cause others. In some cases, you can try to make up for things you've done in the past.... but most of the time, you just have to say your apologies and keep moving forward.
Seriously, though, I'm Sorry is about me wishing I could take back some of the things I've said and done to a person I care deeply about. Even though I try to not have any regrets and recognize that sometimes things just have to happen, there are moments I am not proud of and wish I could take back.
Unfortunately, you can't take away the pain you cause others. In some cases, you can try to make up for things you've done in the past.... but most of the time, you just have to say your apologies and keep moving forward.
track 7 - shoe
** Removed from Streaming**
Sometimes, I get caught up in the past and become a vindictive bitch. And sometimes, I write songs about it.
Shoe is inspired by the end of a friendship, calling out the person for the things they did and blamed you for. To be completely blatant, it's a giant middle finger to one person in particular. And if they're reading this after listening to the song, then they will most likely know that its about them.
On top of that, Shoe is also a slap in the face to myself. Wondering if the reason I feel alone most of the time is because I'm just a terrible person and don't recognize it. I know most people say that bad people don't worry about being bad, but there can be exceptions. There have been so many nights I've gotten really sad or angry because I saw a post someone made on Facebook and just automatically assumed it was about me. Because, in my life story, sometimes I get cast to play the Villain.... and there are certain things that I've seen that fit certain situations a little too perfectly.... and you know what they say about if the shoe fits.
Shoe is inspired by the end of a friendship, calling out the person for the things they did and blamed you for. To be completely blatant, it's a giant middle finger to one person in particular. And if they're reading this after listening to the song, then they will most likely know that its about them.
On top of that, Shoe is also a slap in the face to myself. Wondering if the reason I feel alone most of the time is because I'm just a terrible person and don't recognize it. I know most people say that bad people don't worry about being bad, but there can be exceptions. There have been so many nights I've gotten really sad or angry because I saw a post someone made on Facebook and just automatically assumed it was about me. Because, in my life story, sometimes I get cast to play the Villain.... and there are certain things that I've seen that fit certain situations a little too perfectly.... and you know what they say about if the shoe fits.
track 8 - halloween
this is a song idea/concept i came up with back in 2018, i believe. i was chilling in my room after painting my face to look like a skull, when i got a line in my head.
every day is halloween, when you're with me.
it took me a couple years to get to it, but i'm so glad that i finally did. truthfully, i think i needed to play the bad guy a few more times before i could actually write the lyrics the way i wanted to.
halloween is a.... warning, i guess, to anybody that wants to be in my life -- whether you want to date or just be friends.
in my mind, i will drive you crazy. i will bring out the worst in you. i am the worst thing that could ever happen to a person. one day we'll be doing amazing, flying high together. the next thing you know, we'll be crashing because i decided i was tired of steering the plane.
I tried to fill Halloween with plenty of that holiday imagery: Ghosts, witches, candy, haunted houses. I wanted to paint a picture where I am a "haunted house" and if you stay to long inside, you will get haunted by my ghosts, too.
fun fact: the male voice belongs to my best friend, Taylor ^_^ (thanks for letting me feature you on this track, Taylor! I owe you ♥)
every day is halloween, when you're with me.
it took me a couple years to get to it, but i'm so glad that i finally did. truthfully, i think i needed to play the bad guy a few more times before i could actually write the lyrics the way i wanted to.
halloween is a.... warning, i guess, to anybody that wants to be in my life -- whether you want to date or just be friends.
in my mind, i will drive you crazy. i will bring out the worst in you. i am the worst thing that could ever happen to a person. one day we'll be doing amazing, flying high together. the next thing you know, we'll be crashing because i decided i was tired of steering the plane.
I tried to fill Halloween with plenty of that holiday imagery: Ghosts, witches, candy, haunted houses. I wanted to paint a picture where I am a "haunted house" and if you stay to long inside, you will get haunted by my ghosts, too.
fun fact: the male voice belongs to my best friend, Taylor ^_^ (thanks for letting me feature you on this track, Taylor! I owe you ♥)
track 9 - okay
I am very blessed, but sometimes life overwhelms me. Just because you have "everything" a person could want or need, doesn't mean you are going to be happy 100% of the time. There are moments where I just sit and have to start wondering, "Why?"
Even though I wrote this at the end of 2019 (and recorded it in January), I really feel like it fits some of the harder moments I faced in the beginning of 2020. A family friend passed away unexpectedly, COVID 19 consuming our every day lives, not getting to spend time with some of the people I love because of social distancing requirements, and generally hitting a really rough patch, mentally....
Through all of the chaos that's happened this year, it would just be nice to hear that things are going to be okay. Things don't have to be perfect or the way they were in the past. Sometimes change is mandatory and unavoidable. But, I just want to know that, eventually, I'll make it to the other side of the struggle and it'll all be worth it.
(things have been getting a little better, lately, to anyone who needs to know).
And if anyone needs it, here's links to the help lines:
Suicide Prevention Lifeline: Website --- Phone Number: 1-800-276-8255
Trevor Project (LGBTQ+ Help Line): Website --- Phone Number: 1-866-488-7386
Even though I wrote this at the end of 2019 (and recorded it in January), I really feel like it fits some of the harder moments I faced in the beginning of 2020. A family friend passed away unexpectedly, COVID 19 consuming our every day lives, not getting to spend time with some of the people I love because of social distancing requirements, and generally hitting a really rough patch, mentally....
Through all of the chaos that's happened this year, it would just be nice to hear that things are going to be okay. Things don't have to be perfect or the way they were in the past. Sometimes change is mandatory and unavoidable. But, I just want to know that, eventually, I'll make it to the other side of the struggle and it'll all be worth it.
(things have been getting a little better, lately, to anyone who needs to know).
And if anyone needs it, here's links to the help lines:
Suicide Prevention Lifeline: Website --- Phone Number: 1-800-276-8255
Trevor Project (LGBTQ+ Help Line): Website --- Phone Number: 1-866-488-7386
track 10 - puppet games
** Removed from Streaming**
I wrote Puppet Games as if I were in somebody else's shoes. They've just gotten out of a relationship where they didn't realize how toxic things were, until they look around and realize how completely alone they are.
The narrator's ex was kind of like a "puppet master" when they were together. They managed to change the narrator so much that they became a totally different person and wound up pushing their friends away because of it.
Puppet Games is the celebration of the narrator finally breaking free from the mind games, excited to be able to go back to being themselves, knowing that their friends will return now that the coast is clear.
While this song is not intended to be about violent domestic situations, I would like to provide the information for an organization that could help you get out of a situation of that nature, if it's needed.
The Hotline -- Phone Number: 1-800-799-7233
Please know that I did not intend to trigger anybody with the contents of this song or the post. If it does trigger you, I apologize from the deepest depths of my heart.
The narrator's ex was kind of like a "puppet master" when they were together. They managed to change the narrator so much that they became a totally different person and wound up pushing their friends away because of it.
Puppet Games is the celebration of the narrator finally breaking free from the mind games, excited to be able to go back to being themselves, knowing that their friends will return now that the coast is clear.
While this song is not intended to be about violent domestic situations, I would like to provide the information for an organization that could help you get out of a situation of that nature, if it's needed.
The Hotline -- Phone Number: 1-800-799-7233
Please know that I did not intend to trigger anybody with the contents of this song or the post. If it does trigger you, I apologize from the deepest depths of my heart.
track 11 - bubbles
I had the idea for bubbles a couple years ago while I was swimming. I would hold myself under water and watch as the bubbles floated to the surface. With every ascending bubble, I realized I wanted to write a song that was inspired by sitting at the bottom of a pool.
Bubbles, to me, feels like a dream. It starts out with you sitting at the bottom of a pool )or falling into a body of water, even). You think about your life, and as you close your eyes, you imagine that person you can't stop thinking about, no matter how much time passes. When you see their eyes looking back into yours, you start to wonder if you meant to them what they mean to you. You begin to wonder if you're somebody they will miss, or if you'd be a ghost that haunts their social media timeline through tagged pictures and memories from years before.
But, then you wake up. You're not in the pool, you're in your bed, and you realize you'd fallen asleep with their pictures in your hand. And you realize that every time you said you were over them, that it had to be a lie, because you're still dreaming about them at night.
Bubbles, to me, feels like a dream. It starts out with you sitting at the bottom of a pool )or falling into a body of water, even). You think about your life, and as you close your eyes, you imagine that person you can't stop thinking about, no matter how much time passes. When you see their eyes looking back into yours, you start to wonder if you meant to them what they mean to you. You begin to wonder if you're somebody they will miss, or if you'd be a ghost that haunts their social media timeline through tagged pictures and memories from years before.
But, then you wake up. You're not in the pool, you're in your bed, and you realize you'd fallen asleep with their pictures in your hand. And you realize that every time you said you were over them, that it had to be a lie, because you're still dreaming about them at night.
track 12 - rescue
one night, i had a dream that my best friend and i were in this class room surrounded by a bunch of strangers. all of a sudden, the floor turned into mud and I was the only person that was still above it. i ended up having to search through this thick mud to find my friend before they would drown and die. eventually, i found him, pulled him out, and embraced him. i was so relieved that he was okay.
when i woke up, i was blown away by the intensity of this dream, and wondered if there was meaning behind the mud. when i Googled it, there was a website that said if you dream of mud, that means you're being suffocated from holding on to certain situations in your life, and that it could be a good indication that it's time to let go.
i was disappointed by that idea. i didn't like the idea of my best friend "holding me back" or our friendship being over just because i dreamed of the mud. instead of accepting this meaning, i decided to create my own: it was a sign that i should be there to rescue him whenever he is in need. to be his best friend, to search for him through the mud, and pull him back to the surface if he's going under.
when i woke up, i was blown away by the intensity of this dream, and wondered if there was meaning behind the mud. when i Googled it, there was a website that said if you dream of mud, that means you're being suffocated from holding on to certain situations in your life, and that it could be a good indication that it's time to let go.
i was disappointed by that idea. i didn't like the idea of my best friend "holding me back" or our friendship being over just because i dreamed of the mud. instead of accepting this meaning, i decided to create my own: it was a sign that i should be there to rescue him whenever he is in need. to be his best friend, to search for him through the mud, and pull him back to the surface if he's going under.
track 13 - brave
Brave is a song that kind of responds to a track from my album Summer Time Avenue, titled Nervous.
In Nervous, I talk about how I really like this specific person, but I always shy away from talking to her because I don't want to make a "fool" of myself because I think she is so amazing, while I consider myself to be one of the most awkward people you could ever meet. My fears controlled me to be silent.
Honestly? I'm tired of allowing my brain to talk me out of things. I feel like there are so many things I haven't gotten to do because I've been too scared or consumed in the what-ifs. Truthfully, I let my anxieties cripple me to a point where I forget to have fun... And it's exhausting. I'm 23, I should be living it up and having a ball, not curling up in a ball because I can't get over the idea of talking to somebody?
Brave is kind of the story about how I chose to let my fears be guides, not dictators. Even if I'm still a little nervous, I want to be able to say that I've lived.
In Nervous, I talk about how I really like this specific person, but I always shy away from talking to her because I don't want to make a "fool" of myself because I think she is so amazing, while I consider myself to be one of the most awkward people you could ever meet. My fears controlled me to be silent.
Honestly? I'm tired of allowing my brain to talk me out of things. I feel like there are so many things I haven't gotten to do because I've been too scared or consumed in the what-ifs. Truthfully, I let my anxieties cripple me to a point where I forget to have fun... And it's exhausting. I'm 23, I should be living it up and having a ball, not curling up in a ball because I can't get over the idea of talking to somebody?
Brave is kind of the story about how I chose to let my fears be guides, not dictators. Even if I'm still a little nervous, I want to be able to say that I've lived.
track 14 - art
In the summer of 2019, I started listening to a musician by the name of Trevor Hall, and one of his friends bands called Nahko and Medicine for the People. I became infatuated with both of these artists, admiring the pure truth and power behind their music. I enjoyed the fact that they wrote music that "matters", music with a message, music that could be medicine to people's souls. I loved the idea that these men were writing songs about spirituality, the beauty of nature, and our connection to the world around us. The more I listened to their music, the more inspired I got to write my own kind of "medicine". Later in the year, maybe around the end of fall, I wrote this song called Art.
Art is about accepting yourself for where and who you are. We are all art, made of the same dust as the planets and stars. We were created in the same space as the mountains and the trees and the clouds. We are all art in our own way. Just like I was saying about the butterfly for the main album art, it being flawed, but not being any less beautiful... That's how we are, as people, too. We are beautiful, no matter what our "flaws" may be. We are all worthy of self love and acceptance. Numbers on scales don't change that. Pants sizes don't change that. The color of our skin doesn't change that. Freckles, birth marks, stretch marks, and scars don't change that. We shouldn't define ourselves by these things that help make us unique masterpieces.
Art is about accepting yourself for where and who you are. We are all art, made of the same dust as the planets and stars. We were created in the same space as the mountains and the trees and the clouds. We are all art in our own way. Just like I was saying about the butterfly for the main album art, it being flawed, but not being any less beautiful... That's how we are, as people, too. We are beautiful, no matter what our "flaws" may be. We are all worthy of self love and acceptance. Numbers on scales don't change that. Pants sizes don't change that. The color of our skin doesn't change that. Freckles, birth marks, stretch marks, and scars don't change that. We shouldn't define ourselves by these things that help make us unique masterpieces.
I'm going to be honest: I'm usually scared to death every time I'm about to release a new album or any kind of music.
While most people who keep journals are good about keeping their dirty truths and dark secrets hidden deep in the pages of a notebook, I tend to put my diary entries to music and release them for the internet to hear. I like to put out my truth to help other people not feel so alone. Feelings are hard to deal with/handle, sometimes it's comforting to know you aren't on your own, and that somebody else can relate to the struggles you may be dealing with in secret.
The issue with releasing these diary entries is that, sometimes, it causes commotion in my reality. There are a few songs that aren't based on specific people or actual situations in my life (examples: Mistress, Poison, Bubbles), although the majority of the songs I release have some underlying truth or connection to me. Songs about my crushes, even if they were written months or years prior to their release date, are based on real people. Songs about fighting my inner demons are real. Songs about me bitching about friends, calling people out, or being completely honest about how I feel.... Are all connected to the life I live every day. And because of that, there have been some situations that got complicated when unwanted truths came knocking at the door.
With the three albums I've released in the past (Dreams, Summer Time Avenue, and Unfiltered), I have been insanely nervous for that exact reason. I would worry about my lyrics, question my song choices, and fear the possible fights that could come because of the truth I was putting out. But with Wings? Everything has been a lot easier/smoother.
There has been a little worry, and a few songs that were going to be on the album were taken off just because I wasn't quite ready to release them. But, for most of it's life, Wings has been the first album I am most excited to put out. It's one that I worked insanely hard on and tried to challenge myself with. I learned how to play Ukulele and Piano to try and bring something more to the table than just the same five or six chords on my guitar mixed with my voice. I included electric guitar on Halloween, even though it isn't "perfect", it was my first attempt at adding some kind of "lead" to my song... And I am so freaking proud of it. I tried to write less songs about unrequited love and more about other emotions I feel like anger, doubt, and exhaustion. I even allowed myself to curse more if I genuinely thought it added to the song.
I hope that you love Wings as much as I do.
Thank you for following me on my journey and I can't wait to hear your feedback!
♥,
R.
While most people who keep journals are good about keeping their dirty truths and dark secrets hidden deep in the pages of a notebook, I tend to put my diary entries to music and release them for the internet to hear. I like to put out my truth to help other people not feel so alone. Feelings are hard to deal with/handle, sometimes it's comforting to know you aren't on your own, and that somebody else can relate to the struggles you may be dealing with in secret.
The issue with releasing these diary entries is that, sometimes, it causes commotion in my reality. There are a few songs that aren't based on specific people or actual situations in my life (examples: Mistress, Poison, Bubbles), although the majority of the songs I release have some underlying truth or connection to me. Songs about my crushes, even if they were written months or years prior to their release date, are based on real people. Songs about fighting my inner demons are real. Songs about me bitching about friends, calling people out, or being completely honest about how I feel.... Are all connected to the life I live every day. And because of that, there have been some situations that got complicated when unwanted truths came knocking at the door.
With the three albums I've released in the past (Dreams, Summer Time Avenue, and Unfiltered), I have been insanely nervous for that exact reason. I would worry about my lyrics, question my song choices, and fear the possible fights that could come because of the truth I was putting out. But with Wings? Everything has been a lot easier/smoother.
There has been a little worry, and a few songs that were going to be on the album were taken off just because I wasn't quite ready to release them. But, for most of it's life, Wings has been the first album I am most excited to put out. It's one that I worked insanely hard on and tried to challenge myself with. I learned how to play Ukulele and Piano to try and bring something more to the table than just the same five or six chords on my guitar mixed with my voice. I included electric guitar on Halloween, even though it isn't "perfect", it was my first attempt at adding some kind of "lead" to my song... And I am so freaking proud of it. I tried to write less songs about unrequited love and more about other emotions I feel like anger, doubt, and exhaustion. I even allowed myself to curse more if I genuinely thought it added to the song.
I hope that you love Wings as much as I do.
Thank you for following me on my journey and I can't wait to hear your feedback!
♥,
R.
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